Sunday, April 12, 2020

NAILED IT!

This morning I was thinking about the phrase "Nailed It" as it relates to judgment, more specifically the resurrection and final judgment.

This week I had the privilege helping my daughter with her new baby as well as giving special attention to her older toddler son.  After the babes were sleeping, she introduced me to a baking contest show called, "Nailed It."  I had never seen this humorous spoof on baking competitions as a master baker challenged each contestant to create a ridiculously ambitious pastry, cookie or cake.  These contestants had no formal training experience, or competence but liked to bake or were at least willing to follow basic instructions outlined by the show.  Perhaps the most impressive quality each contestant possessed was their ability to keep trying through this unique challenge.  Also impressive was their strict adherence to time constraints while covering their work without complaining.  Finally, each contestant one by one exclaimed, "NAILED IT!' as they enthusiastically revealed their creation. The real humor lay in the side by side comparison of what they were suppose to create and what they actually did create.  Hilarious!!!

 I'm sure it helps to have the show facilitated by a comedian.  I appreciated each of the three judges ability to focus on the positive even though the results were often disastrous and deserving of the harshest criticism. That cake sucks man. You did a horrible job.  You call that a cake? I admit, sometimes, they do spit the cake out but on the whole, it is a warm-hearted show that celebrates effort and sheds a fresh perspective on the concept of final judgment. The contestants enthusiastically sign up for the privilege of being judged according to their works.  I'm sure they are also motivated by the attention received as well as the 10K for the winner.  It's a legit prize for their best efforts.

It made me think of my best efforts to create: My body of work as a writer and composer...NAILED IT!  My efforts raising my 5 children..NAILED IT!    My work as a Recreational Therapist...NAILED IT!.   My discipleship as a follower of Jesus Christ...NAILED IT!  My very life and my works...NAILED IT!  Yes it's laughable, especially compared to the work of the masters all around me in each of these areas-especially compared to THE Master.  I'm hoping he has a good sense of humor.  More importantly, I hope he will be able to overlook the glaring deficiencies with great mercy and find the good...something...anything recognizing my best efforts.

Oh, and there will be rewards for all contestants!  Much more than a measly 10K.  How about an incorruptible body anyone?  Talk about a body of work!  Or should I say, a body that always works!
A body that will be raised up so I and and have the privilege of being judged.  Yes the privilege of being judged. 

At times I don't think judgment is a privilege at all.  Competitions, comparisons, tests, evaluations, reviews, resumes, interviews, observation, feedback and criticism-all forms of judgement.  Even discerning between good and evil and making a sound choice...all forms of judgement.  Adam and Eve's choice put the nail in the coffin  for the whole human race...We all die.  That is the first judgement according to Jacob.  "Wherefore, it must needs be an infinite atonement—save it should be an infinite atonement this corruption could not put on incorruption. Wherefore, the first judgment which came upon man must needs have remained to an endless duration. And if so, this flesh must have laid down to rot and to crumble to its mother earth, to rise no more." (2 Nephi 9:7).  We're all destined for dust.... or cake mix.  

However, I think of the Master Baker, the Lord of All Creation, who truly nailed it-for real-joking set aside.   The nails driven through his hands and wrists culminating his great suffering for us.  His humble submission and admission for his best efforts..."It is finished."   All this..so I will be raised up with an incorruptible body and brought before God to have the privilege of being judged with justice and mercy.  Happy Easter to all!

15 And it shall come to pass that when all men shall have passed from this first death unto life, insomuch as they have become immortal, they must appear before the judgment-seat of the Holy One of Israel; and then cometh the judgment, and then must they be judged according to the holy judgment of God.
22 And he suffereth this that the resurrection might pass upon all men, that all might stand before him at the great and judgment day. (2 Nephi 9: 15-16)







Sunday, April 5, 2020

#Hear Him

This morning I was thinking about my hearing and how dull it has been of late. Recently I've had problems related to my inner ear and dizziness.  On Wednesday, I reported to a co-worker that I was having some dizziness while seated at my computer.  Shortly thereafter, I laid down on floor because my world was literally spinning. So much so,  I proceeded to throw up in the trash can... continually.  I've always been prone to motion sickness, but I could not lift my head without being affected.  After being removed by wheelchair from the building, with trashcan on my lap, I laid down on the cold sidewalk waiting for transport to the doctor's office.   I'm sure those around me thought I had Covid-19 due to how incapacitated I truly was.  It was scary but I felt confident that is was related to my inner ear problem and not some sudden viral illness.

I was not surprised when my doctor confirmed my diagnosis, told me to clean out my ears, gave me a shot in my side for my nausea and related prescription, and advised me to reduce motion.  The next day I stayed in bed all day and gradually felt better.  I learned from my mother that my grandmother spent several days in the hospital for her vertigo.  She was sure she had a tumor near her inner ear, but she didn't. There is a 3% chance that I might have this kind of benign tumor around my inner ear but I don't really want to spend a ton of money for a scan that will pretty much tell me the same thing my grandma was told.  You have vertigo.  It is a chronic condition you'll have to manage throughout the rest of your life.  And so it goes.

I'm trying to be more aware of the symptoms so they don't escalate to that spinning world state I experienced in my office.  I'm taking precautions by focusing on my ears since that appears to be the first symptom leading up to vertigo.  "Dull hearing" is a great description of this type of hearing loss due to gross wax build up.  Of course the nifty gadget I bought on Amazon this morning is supposed to take care of all that grossness and prevent hearing loss and cognitive impairment. This tool might be an important investment in sharpening my capacities to hear and think.

I know I have also been spiritually "dull of hearing" and can identify with this scripture in Matt. 13.15: "For this people's heart is waxed gross, and their ears are dull of hearing, and their eyes they have closed; lest at any time they should see with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and should understand with their heart, and should be converted, and I should heal them."

Yep, that's me.  Dull of hearing.  I'm sure it didn't help my hearing or perceiving spiritual things by spending my isolation time binge watching Vidangel's rendition of "Breaking Bad."  Surely I need a tool a lot more effective than the Amazon ear picker to remove some of that build up.

Fortunately for me, and for the whole world, we have such a tool...General Conference. Since hearing has been on my mind, I was especially sensitive when approaching the theme (#HearHim) of our 190th session of General Conference.   I heard Him in my heart and in my mind testifying of the truth of what I heard in spoken word and song.  Though my eyes are wet, they see more clearly.  Though my ears are dull, I heard the message loud and clear- as President Nelson read a new proclamation to the world.  It's a powerful message.  It's one I know is true.  My words are stupid, this blog is stupid, but this proclamation is not...It is important.  It is worth reading and accepting the invitation to hear for yourself-His voice. Ask if it is true.

https://newsroom.churchofjesuschrist.org/article/restoration-proclamation